Deep Life Questing in Concentrated Form.
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__________________________________________________________________________________________ 12/28/16 past midnight What is a day? Truly? Those twenty-four hours and how we measure them and decide whether they were well spent or not. Wasted or productive. I did not write yesterday. I almost did not write “today” – in actuality, I did not write for two days straight – this blog post, counted Read More …
__________________________________________________________________________________________ 12/26/16 past midnight A day of driving. Alone time. It’s important for me to be by myself for long periods. I can decide to experience my toes all the way up to my head. I can explore being loud. So loud that my throat begins to hurt. I can pray and chant – loudly Read More …
__________________________________________________________________________________________ 12/25/16 past midnight My body wishes to be utilized, walking amongst pine trees. Deep breaths and a trusty ax to chop wood. My feet in motion, carrying me upon the Earth. Mist curling through branches cooling my skin. The sounds of my breath and foot steps cushioned within the forest. Millipedes moving across an old Read More …
__________________________________________________________________________________________ 12/24/16 (remembered) I came through darkness and into today with more clarity. It wasn’t quite the bright shining light of total healing abundance and overwhelming love that absolves all obstacles; as I had glimpses of feeling (or had wanted to feel); but there was new air to breath in. My lungs opened wider to Read More …
__________________________________________________________________________________________ 12/23/16 11:26pm I have deeper feelings than I continue to fail to realize. Sometimes they come out at inconvenient times. I certainly think they are precious, though I am not sure others agree. I certainly understand when emotions take you down a notch. I don’t want to take anyone else down a notch. But I Read More …
__________________________________________________________________________________________ 12/22/16 past midnight Will I miss the heaviness of life when I can no longer feel it? __________________________________________________________________________________________
__________________________________________________________________________________________ 12/21/16 past midnight A night wanderer am I. In the cold, dark, solitude of winter, nighttime walks offer so much. It takes much more to prepare to walk outside. The air smells electric. Passersby are suddenly new comrades as we are together in the harshness of the winter night. * But truly, it is Read More …
______________________________________________________________________________________ 12/20/16 10:42pm Dictionary.com states that its 2016 “Word of the Year” is Xenophobia: fear or hatred of foreigners, people from different cultures, or strangers. The site states there were huge spikes in the look-up of this word during Brexit and the US Presidential race this year. After Brexit, the British Home Office reported a 41% increase in hate crimes the month following the EU referendum. I know Read More …
______________________________________________________________________________________ 12/19/16 4:27am Chasing a Holy Grail. And that’s the problem. It’s not to be achieved. * On Saturday morning I walked through the rain, slush and snow with cold, wet feet in my inadequate boots and wondered why I was “putting myself through all this.” Is it worth it? But, what if that’s the Read More …
______________________________________________________________________________________ 12/16/16 9:55am A few days ago I was driving home in a borrowed car, worryingly low on gas; and listening to a radio news show discuss President-Elect Trump’s choice for Secretary of State: Exxon CEO, Rex Tillerman. The news reporters were commenting on the impending total destruction of the environment and subsequently the world as Read More …