I have deeper feelings than I continue to fail to realize. Sometimes they come out at inconvenient times. I certainly think they are precious, though I am not sure others agree. I certainly understand when emotions take you down a notch. I don’t want to take anyone else down a notch. But I certainly want my feelings to feel free to flow. And sometimes, being alone with them just doesn’t quite do the trick. I wonder what it would feel like to have someone hold me close and stroke my hair even as I took them down a notch. …Even on their special day. And I am sorry. I am so so sorry for being me. I am sorry I have taken you down a notch. I just care a whole, real lot. More than I realized. And it’s overwhelming. And I love you. And I tried my very very best. And I know I failed. But I just cared is all. Even as you walk away.