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10/20/16
8:51pm
I will try to write earlier in the day at some point.
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Back to Evolution. I wonder if Human is the first step in a soul’s evolution. For those who consider reincarnation, and I do, there seems to be a school of thought that we eventually arrive at human form, like a great achievement, and then continue to expand consciousness from there. Until one day inevitably, our soul (or consciousness) can now move on from Earthly lessons and growth to a next stage of existence.
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But I wonder at this. Perhaps human is the first step, since the journey seems to be entirely about learning to surrender and trust one’s own soul. The journey seems to be about seeking to understand peace and harmony. Seeking to understand letting go into our own energy flow. Seeking to understand connection; oneness; universality. Seeking to understand our connection to the Earth. Seeking to understand the Earth and how it supports us. Seeking to understand the divine. Seeking to know. Seeking to explain. Seeking understanding on every level it can be sought. Seeking.
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Seek and ye shall find…
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Look into nature – at even one tree, and it seems there is nothing more to seek. Do we eventually get to evolve into the privilege of living as a plant? It all seems to culminate there: stillness, quiet, power, peace, harmony, connection, oneness, surrender, weathering the storm, letting go, trust, receiving from the earth all that is necessary, giving back to the source from which you are created in perfect harmony, brilliance, beauty, existing. There is no seeking. There only Is. Is that not a physical capturing of the nirvana, rapture, ecstasy we seek?
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If we could only live for one day, but that day was entirely an experience of joy from beginning to end, wouldn’t that be enough? A blade of grass warm in the sun. A bursting forth, burning up quickly in a rapture of only love. Until we finally evolve to live as a tree. I feel more description here is unnecessary.
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But what about all that came before us? Well, isn’t linear time something the human mind constructed to make sense of it’s own existence?
At least, this is where my seeking has currently taken me.
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I am a Towering Goddess
and I created the Earth
for the many forests
I will walk through
in and out of time.
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I cause the storm
to feel what the form
of my body is able
to withstand, which I’ve come
to understand is eons
of stretching being.
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Fingers reach to
curl and wither into
feathers or petals
flattened against
my own wind.
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I am the wind.
I am the fire
burning myself to dust
to remember floating;
twisting through the hardened
structures of wanting to experience
tightness, constriction vibration, in love.
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I am a Bursting.
A choice.
Crumble
And again.
Falling is rising
in the other direction.
And again.
I am so old and this
is always new.
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My feet are the wisest part
of this whole thing.
The thing of my choice.
I am a Bursting.
I am a Choice.
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(Understandings in May. Written May 8th, 2016).
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(photo taken May 6, 2016).
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