10.27.16

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10/27/16

8:29pm

I kept thinking of spiders. All evening. Close my eyes and there is a spider. I open my eyes and wonder when I’ll next see a spider and shortly thereafter one comes crawling along. A big one! With a gray abdomen and orange legs. I discover that it is a woodlouse spider. I’ve never seen one before. I feel somewhat happy to have made it’s acquaintance and watched it crawl along towards a little hole in the floor. 

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Hello, Spider. I felt you. And then there you were.

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I think about spider webs and their perfection. Earlier I had been considering edges. Containers, lines and frames. Our whole world made up in sacred geometry. But if there were no edges, containers, lines, or frames…we would bleed into each other perhaps. I imagined merging molecularly with the man sitting next to me on the train and he seemed SO BEAUTIFUL!! I felt close enough to him to lean in, smell him, and sit in his lap. I didn’t. I held myself back. I knew we had boundaries, though in the moment I felt none at all. Just by imagining this. 

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…But even molecules and atoms have their edges. Hmmm. So what if there were none?

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At this thought my feet jolt with a surge of energy like an electrical shock! What do I do with all of this?!

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